Befriending the Skeletons in My Closet: 13 of 43 Days

Skeleton in my Closet: FTD-life-trauma 2007-09

Skeleton in my Closet: FTD-life-trauma 2007-09

It is February 15 and we are 1/3 of the way through a 3-month organizing project (scheduled 1/15 – 4/15) to resurrect contents of my FTD (Frontotemporal Degeneration)-life-trauma 2007-2009. Originally, the primary goal was to unpack and clear boxes from 2009, stored for the last five years in our basement. The process in 13 sessions led to a productive sorting of the easy and the hard stuff. Hard stuff was labeled “trauma” or “mary’s life” and moved to consolidated storage on basement shelving. Easy stuff was labeled “home decor,” “office supplies,” “art supplies,” “books,” “kitchen,” and moved to a staging area for soon-to-be floating-up and integration with the home’s living-level contents; I call these the “bubbles.”

Books ready to Bubble-up

Books ready to Bubble-up

Art Supplies Bubble-up

Art Supplies Bubble-up

This past week we began the work of floating-the-bubbles-up to the living-level. Over the next few weeks, we will further sort and reduce remaining “easy” categories, prior to home-integration. Since we’ve befriended, reduced, contained, floated-up, and integrated “easy” contents from my 2007-2009 FTD-life-trauma, we will also be able to make some headway through the family estate contents I inherited November 13, 2013, as part of this 3-month project.

Mary's Life: age 0-34

Mary’s Life: age 0-34

Mary's Life: age 38-present

Mary’s Life: age 38-present

The success of our progress has not been without pain. This work has been extremely difficult emotionally. Some days, I have called myself walking-with-wound-open; Like a blood-letting, I feel the heart-ache of my grief and require a lot of rest, as if I am ill. Being mid-process is challenging, because I cannot see the end yet. The work has required me to reduce my outside-the-home commitments and become like a hermit.

In recent days, I have re-framed my understanding of my life-story to have so far three main phases: My life, age 0-34; My FTD-life-trauma, age 35-37; My resurrection, recovery & renewal, age 38-present.

Moving forward with a listening heart,
vision, inquiry, and action,
~ Mary

This post is part of the series: Transforming Trauma, Becoming Whole.
Please read “40+ Days of Desert Practice” for the series description and background.

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