God knows where I found the will to continue organizing on Saturday afternoon, February 1; My beloved Karl was committed to unpacking the boxes from 2007-2008 that we’d stacked for him, and his presence supported my own in continuing to get-it-done (unpacking and categorizing remaining 2007-2008 boxes in the basement). For three hours I focused on shelving unit #2, fueled simply by my desire to be done. I unpacked most of the stuff into the meta-categories: garden, antiques, dishes, teddy-bears, pillows, home decor, technology, and trauma 2008.
I took some time near the end of the solo session to group the hard stuff together. The meta-categories “trauma” and “mary’s life” boxes are now stored to the left and right of shelving unit #1, respectively. This is qualified as hard stuff because of the emotional weight and time it will take to unpack and sort the contents. In contrast, the easy stuff is categories like: books, bath, kitchen, stationery… the things of life that have little to no emotional triggers are relatively easy to re-integrate into the now. I expect to move forward in future sessions rather fluidly with the easy stuff, leaving the hard stuff for future projects.
I’m grateful that I’m not alone in these solo sessions. Miss Honey gives me huge emotional support and courage to continue with what feels like a never-ending process of resurrection. If I didn’t have this wonderful pet, I know I’d conjure up a comforting image of Spirit to carry with me in what feels like a valley of darkness.
Moving forward with a listening heart,
vision, inquiry, and action,
This post is part of the series: Transforming Trauma, Becoming Whole.
Please read “40+ Days of Desert Practice” for the series description and background.